lists

favorite things

warmth
youtube video essays
desert sunsets

wish list

computer with a dvd drive
criterion gregg araki apocalypse trilogy
peace of mind
pet nametags

things i collect

dvds + blu-rays
snoopy memorabilia
dust
unused sketchbooks

morning routine

say good morning
check email
check tumblr
sweep my room floor

observations

the weather is getting colder
my face is becoming more padded
i can't change anything but myself

home and garden

get litterboxes for the rest of the house
get window screens
mop again
clean office desk

arbitrary clothing rules

no square or v-necks
no shoulder padding or poofs
no velvet
no overly loose underwear

addictions

worrying unnecessarily
hot showers
naps
nyquil

habits to quit

assuming the worst
not putting clothes right away
ignoring my hunger
leaving dirty dishes at my desk

website to-do list

add pages for headmates
link everything back to each other
delete image doubles
add love notes

what's in my bag

journal and pens
paint markers
minidv camcorder
foldable bag
leonard cohen poetry
sanitary safe use supplies + naloxone
sunglasses

tests i got 100% on

emr first responder unit 3, junior year
english comprehension, 2nd grade
ap world history final, sophomore year

regrets

saying too much
not saying enough
not leaving sooner

stereotypes i fit

2014 tumblr girl
lonely transsexual
english major
depressed 20-something

cat nicknames

beanie baby
beansie bugs
el segundo
little miss el segundo

things i know about my family

my grandma was debilitatingly bipolar
my mom didn't leave her bed for 5 weeks after i was born
we moved to florida because my dad cheated
dad relapsed into heroin when i was 15

memories

avoiding the days of the week song in kindergarten
my childhood friend trying to kiss me
the bathroom on route 66
the smell of my 3rd grade math teacher

celebrities i've been told i look like

patti smith
elvis costello
winona ryder
sinead o'connor

things i don't regret

cutting off my parents
moving
taking back my gameboy color
biting my dad

tumblr blogs

granolaria
bunniculari
chronic-idlepose
taylorswiftsuffering

bothers

adults being mean to children
not putting another tp roll in
drunk people getting too close
teenagers with the audacity

aspirations

make something cool
raise a child
love and be loved
go back to the desert

favorite snacks

bananas
tortilla chips and hummus
chicken nuggets
trail mix

nice things people have done for me

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reassurances

you are loved and wanted
things will be different but you'll be okay

unpopular opinions

child-centric live-action films are unethical
ice is awful in drinks

favorite childhood shows

mickey's house of mouse
phil of the future
the twilight zone
grim adventures of billy and mandy
suite life of zack and cody

hobbies

going for walks
making my little website
watching movies
jrpgs

thankful for

my partners
my cats
people smarter than me
birds

iso at thrift store

dvd shelves
old computers
2000s clothing
crt televisions

shames and insecurities

my shoulders
my face
my genitals
not talking to my family
not being good enough at saying when things are bad