hi! welcome to my garden. i've been blessed enough to be loved by many people in my life, and some of those people have given me letters or cards or notes.
inside the garden you'll find every note or drawing i've kept from the people i've loved and who have loved me. i keep it as not only a way to digitize things people have given me but also as a practice of self-love.
you see, i have a very hard time remembering that i'm loved and wanted. it's easily one of, if not the most, difficult thing for me. so in an effort to physically remind myself that "yes! i do have a place in people's lives as a person of love, even if that love is over!"
some of these notes are from people who i still love and who still love me, and i excitedly wait for the chance to add more to their planter box in my garden. some of these are from people who loved me at one point, but are for one reason or another no longer in my life, but whose flowers are still important for me to keep watered out of respect for myself. some of these notes use my deadname, which i'd like to gently remind you is something i strongly dislike. i have never liked my deadname, my parents didn't like my deadname, and it was chosen out of a pamphlet the day i was born. if this is your first time knowing my deadname, i'd rather you interpret these notes as being written to someone entirely different from me (haha!) because of how much i hate my deadname.
there may be some notes that, if you're currently in my life as someone who loves me and who i love, may feel a little upsetting, activating, or maybe even jealousy-inducing. i humbly and kindly ask that you remember that this is a space by me, for me, for the purpose of reminding myself that in whatever shape or form, i was loved once, and am still loved, and my history has made me who i am today in so many beautiful, and painful, ways.
please tread lightly in the garden, don't prune my flowers, and treat me, and the flowers, with respect and remembrance.
thank you.
enter the garden